然后我说“can 您 elaborate?” and she says …
Well, i have to say 那 i have about 100 reasons not to drink, but when i have a craving or someone asks me if i want to goÂ out for beers … i often can’想不到我不喝酒的原因之一。 [它 ’明天会让我感到绝对地狱？它’贵吗？当我的一个室友在凌晨四点醒来尿尿时，我看起来像个傻瓜。’我独自一人在黑暗的起居室里，像明天一样被锤击和饮酒，这在我的词汇中是不是一个字？ 当我想喝酒时. Or i tell myself i will behave this time and will drink normally, and go to bed when everyone else does. (i 决不 do.)
作为挑战的一部分，我已经不再可以选择喝酒了，所以在最近几周被要求去喝酒时，我的回答是绝对的，“no thank 您.” It’是我想到的第一件事，也是唯一一件事。
also what i 喜欢about the 挑战 is 那 it is 100 days — not 永远。 in the past, i have gone from 喝 my brains out, to saying i am going to stop 永远。 and then a really enticing opportunity to drink would arise and i would think, “well 永远 can start tomorrow，或在xyz事件之后。” A hundred days is a very short time compared to 永远, and for now it is a number 那 seems more significant than 30 and easier to swallow than, say, 365.
It’s funny 那 K wrote about “forever”因为我刚刚按照相同的思路给Carrie写了些东西。我为Carrie写了两次，因为在24小时内，她两次分别问了几乎相同的问题。
I do believe 那 关于“从不”的思考使我们陷入困境.Â in early sobriety, everything is hard. so the BIG idea of â€˜neverâ€™ is just 现在太多了.
the only plan I have is to not drink today.Â and perhaps not drink tomorrow.Â the rest of it, Iâ€™ll deal with it when it comes.Â and the longer Iâ€™m 清醒 , the more I realize 那 Iâ€™m likely to continue treating it the same way I have up to now. and 那 is a huge giant fucking relief.
is it 决不? 我不â€™t even have to think about what 决不 means.Â I just have to do my thing.Â and keep doing it.Â rise, lather, repeat.Â sure, Iâ€™m sure 那 â€˜neverâ€™ gives a kind of comfort, but Iâ€™m just the kind of girl who hates rigid rules and might just rebel.Â so I know me 好 enough, 那 if Iâ€™ve found something 那â€™s working, Iâ€™m not changing it.Â not even a tiny bit.Â Iâ€™m just doing this.Â again.Â and again tomorrow ðŸ™‚
所有混乱的想法（“is this 永远?”) do stop.Â Itâ€™s just wolfie rebelling, trying to find loopholes, ways out, ways to drink again.Â and hereâ€™s the TRUTH:Â 您â€™re doing fine. even if 您 donâ€™t believe me.Â [this is why 您â€™ve reached out for advice from others, because 您 truly canâ€™t tellâ€¦ 那 您â€™re ALREADY doing everything right.]
您â€™re not 喝 .Â 那â€™s it. 那’s all 您 have to do ðŸ™‚