我最长’几个月前，我曾经停过9天。我记得我以为我’d try 30-days 醇 free, and I made it 9 days. then i drank for several days, then i took another 6 days off. But 那’s it.
I read yesterday 那 the more times you try to quit, the closer you may be to really giving it up. Maybe we need to practice quitting …
除了这两个最近超过一个星期的简短尝试之外，我’ve been 喝 daily for about 3 years. Before 那, for the previous 15 years, it was 6 out of 7 nights per week (i used to take one night off a week; recently, not so much).
我从来没有打算去吸墨纸。实际上我讨厌醉酒。当无序行为开始时，我总是离开聚会。如果有人因喝酒过量而呕吐，我’我彻底恶心。一世’d never do 那, I say to myself. I’d永远不要让我发生这种事情。
另一方面，无论是否我们’re home playing cards or out in restaurants with clients. My version of tipsy is enough to feel fuzzy, but not so much 那 i fall over.
还有很多晚上，凌晨4点，当我无缘无故地醒来时，又热又烦…还有很多早晨，当我醒来时脱水而痛苦“ok, this is enough.”
What was the turning point this time? We were on vacation last month, and I was overdoing it. I was actually looking forward to coming home so 那 I could stop 喝 so much. And so often.
和往常一样，我正在巡游‘sober’在线文学。我读了一些有关七月干旱的事情，“I can do 那. I can take a whole month off. How hard can it be? Harder than running a marathon?”
I’从七月开始的9天，现在我意识到了’s irritatingly hard. I started this blog on day 7 when I realized 那 I was about to bail on my 30-day plan (again). I wondered if asking the (online) universe for help would help.
那么为什么戒酒如此烦人呢？为什么不’面对挑战时，我更高的目标会自动否定我的头脑吗？我的意思是我不’即使在高速公路上也可以在高速公路上行驶’有趣而又令人振奋的，它将使我更快地到达那里，因为我更高层次的目标可以说得很坚定“that’ll get you killed” – and i listen …